I’m jut going further and further down
I’m having more and more suicidal thoughts to the point I’m thinking what way to do it
Dp is totally pissed off with me, he asked if we were going to do shopping!
I just said yes, then lay down
I’m really not upto going acting like nothing is wrong
Dp I’m sure thinks I should just carry on
Shopping, cooking, visiting etc
I know it’s the way to lift depression
But I be got no interest whatsoever
Dp asked what I want for tea, I don’t feel like anything, just said get chicken “there £6 “ so what ffs
I have had to literally write a list
Because he will just get what’s needed for the day
The fridge is bear
I’m loosing my temper with him every time he ask
Should I do this
Where is that
How do I do that
He’s only been gone 5 mins 1 call and 3 text there’s only 6 things on list as he won’t do big shop to stressful. Rather go everyday for few things
I feel like screaming, he seems to carry on like I’m normal
Trying to make a joke out of thingsfeels like he’s not taking me seriously and will carry on with his day and phone and not even ask how I’m doing
Oh I’m so fucked up in my thinking