Hi,
I need some advice. I’m completely convinced I have BPD. Have for years. Before my third child I went to the doctors thinking I had bipolar but apparently my mania and depression switches too fast for it to be that. I suffer with depression and anxiety. I also have an very impulsive with spending which has caused me to get into a lot of debt. My moods are getting ridiculous. I switch so quickly from being happy to being absolutely vile to my partner, and I can’t seem to help it! I shout so much and lose my temper and I don’t know why! I feel like my mind is racing constantly and I can’t switch it off. I don’t know what to do. Do I go doctors? What do I say?
I definitely don’t think it’s just depression. I have days where I just want to hide in my bedroom and not see anyone but I don’t feel depressed, I just don’t want to see anyone.
Also, I have literally lost all my friends. I get too emotionally attached and then majorly jealous when they get other friends etc, pushing them away. I can’t stop!
I had an awful childhood with an alcoholic parent. I can see similarities in my mum with me, I definitely have an addicted personality- Food, spending etc