I just don't know. If someone described me they'd say I was a happy lively person, sometimes I feel I can concur the world .
Except for a few days (each month maybe) when I want to vanish and wish I'd never been born. During this time I feel useless - a rubbish mum, an incompetent cook, terrible employee, friendless. I'm
Tired and hate the world and the work Hates me. I lost my mum 4 years ago and really miss having her around to tell me to
Stop being so dramatic and pull my socks up. Maybe there's an element of grief hanging around. I've got a supportive husband who takes on more than his fair share of responsibilities with the D.C. he seems to be getting fitter and healthier and I'm the opposite. Im often quite distant from him. I seem to piss people off at the moment or it feels that way - One friend accused me of just not being there for her as she's having business problems but I just can't face her dramas at the moment. Oh god I'm just a mess. I'm having thyroid investigations but apart from that I'm a healthy 49 (Pre - menopausal) female. Any advice? Even if it's how to hide until this cloud disappears