Hello guys,
So I guess alittle disclaimer/background before I start, I love being a mother, I'm in a strong relationship and currently seeking professional help.
With that out the way, I guess the whole point is ever since having my wonderful son who is 18months now I feel like I'm disappearing, like if I don't do something soon I might literally fade away. I was never an out going child at all but I was always told by family and my very small friendship group that I was the weird and wonderful one. I have recently lost my dogs and believer me with one being bald it was a talking point, I lost my interesting job due to not being able to cope after going back after maternity leave, I use to be really involved with birds of prey which I can longer not due to having to move after losing my job, I was always wearing interesting geeky clothing which ive stopped due to it not fitting the mom bod. I was even into taxidermy but I'm not looking at selling my collection as it just simply takes up space I feel should be filled with 'family' stuff.
I use to be an prolific gamer but simply no joy as I'm constantly cleaning cooking or playing with my son and I know this is just life but suddenly find myself with no time at all for me, what am I doing wrong?
Yes, well I know I'm depressed and I'm trying to correct what I can to fight it, seeking professional help from step2 wellbeing, ive started going to Zumba once a week but this is only when I have the chance, ive gotten a part time retail job, I've gutted re arrange and sorted out new flat. But I still feel like I'm fading away, like... me.
How do you stop yourself from disappearing?
I love being my sons mum but I feel like I should be more then that.
Any suggestions please Id love to know, cause I'm running on embers of what use to be a bright flame. Even my partner has noticed and feels at a loss how to help.