I don’t think I can do this any longer

[SweetMisery]

I just don’t think I want to exist anymore. It’s such a strong feeling of needing to just not be here anymore.

Has anyone had this and survived it?

It's not your fault. I had a new medication prescribed this week. Took one. It really isn't going to work for me.
Stopped a previous one due to a different side effect.
Not my fault. Yep. It's an illness. So I shall get back to the GP and seek an alternative.

I feel like a fraud or a waste of the GP’s time

I know sweetmisery but that's the illness talking

You'd be seeing the gp because you're ill. Definitely not a waste of time. You deserve to get better.

How are you doing this morning?

You're not a fraud or wasting time. That's the illness talking. It's a bugger. You're not well and an unwell person isn't wasting the time of a GP.

Woken up the same way as always dreading the day

can you take some leave from work to give yourself a chance to catch your breath?

I had been feeling like this for about 6 weeks but gradually it has started to lift and I have had a few days of feeling slightly better. Just keep plodding through, keep posting on here and hopefully it will change. Have you seen your gp? I know you said you feel you’d be wasting their time but that’s not true. You are ill, you need to see them, that is what they are there for.

Yeah, it can be like that. Are you going to work today?

How are you doing sweet?

It doesn't have to be for always. See your GP. Change this.