Am I just have a wee slump or PND coming back?

[NikkiBFG]

Had bad PND after DS born (a year ago) and have been on 20mg citalopram since about August. Have been really comming out of it and doing so well but lately, feel as if slipping back a bit.

Am due to go back to work soon but they are giving me hell about my work options, have had to appeal it, get union involved etc so that's all pretty crap. Am doing settling sessions with DS at nursery and feel awful for leaving him and my grandad has bladder cancer and is having an op on Wed to remove his bladder and prostate, with a scan to see how far its spread.....

Also, I don't feel that DH is supporting me. There is paperwork everywhere but all the tidying seems to fall down to me, same with organising things like the nursery, doing the shopping list, sorting out healthy, fun and nutritious meals for DS etc....I saw the paperwork on the side today and just burst into tears!!

Phew....rant over!

No experience of PND but just wanted to say that you have a lot to deal with at the moment so don't be too hard on yourself.

Tell dh some of the things you need him to do to take the pressure off you (even give him a list!). And make sure you find time for yourself.

Does dh know how you're feeling?

Yes he does but tbh, not sure he knows what to say for the best...he tries to be helpful by reminding me of all the things I need to do, but that just makes me feel worse! I tend to want to sleep a lot when I get like this to block it out, which makes it worse because I nap when DS naps and then wake up with nothing done iyswim!

I'm not an expert but did suffer with depression a while before my DD was born (14 months ago). I was worried about it coming back so whenever I felt wobbly I saw my GP. Sounds like you're suffering from stress and you do have a lot on your plate at the mo. Would it help to see your GP?

Mmm....maybe worth a try.. but I don't want my tablets increased....was actually hoping to start decreasing them at some point...mind you, I suppose its easy to confuse genuine stress with PND when you have suffered it...iyswim? I do have a lot on...maybe I'm just being too hard on myself!

My GP explained that the symptoms of depression are very similar to those of stress and to try and take some time out for myself. Not easy with a little one I know! Is there anyone around who can give you a hand? If the paperwork is really bugging you could you and DH sort it out together? Have to go DD has woken up from her nap and is shouting! Good luck