I have struggled with anxiety/depression since my eldest was born, she had lots of health problems. I'd been doing a bit better, but recently everything has thrown me.
My father was an alcoholic who died from alcohol related illness over 10 years ago. It wasn't a great situation growing up, I've never dealt with any of it and actually can't bear to talk about it and would rather push it all to the back of my mind. For some reason at the moment it's all I can think of.
I was at swimming lessons when my nephew wasn't being watched and went under water, he was fine but I completely blew my lid. I think I was on the verge of a panic attack as it felt like someone had stepped on my chest.
I actually feel like I can't cope anymore, the anxiety I can usually hide away can't seem to stop bubbling to the surface. I am a real people pleaser so can't bear the thought of looking bad to anyone, i work with vulnerable people and I just can't bear to deal with their issues - I have always been so empathetic. I don't know what to do.
Sorry for the very rambling post!!