Therapy

[squirrelnut]

I started therapy today.

I think I have Borderline Personality Disorder.

I saw a physiatrist 4/5 years ago who gave me this diagnosis and I refused to engage and lots more trauma as followed.

I generally cope day to day but in the last 6 months I have taken on a very stressful job and it’s really had an effect on my mental health.

I feel like such a horrible person most of the time and I have become very paranoid especially when I am alone. I see things/people sometimes which sounds awful and I do know they’re probably not there but I am scared by them and my heart races. Not sure if this really counts as a hallucination as I know they can’t be there (door locked etc).

Well done for starting therapy today, this is a big step. Good luck on your journey, and stay strong.

Please can you tell me how this went, the approach, prognosis etc?

I ask as I've just been diagnosed with an anxious personality disorder combo, with a healthy dose of obsessive compulsive, dependant and avoidant in equal measure.

I was told to self refer to the local CBT centre and have my initial screening telephone session in a couple of weeks.

I'm anxious (the irony not lost on me) to find out what's going to happen in the following process as I've never had any CBT therapy.

I've had talking therapy/counselling last year which was great to get things off my chest, but ultimately didn't 'fix' anything.

It went ok I think.... I felt at ease with the therapist.

I should have said this is private not NHS therapy and I am seeing a ‘clinical physcotherapist’ who does a little private practice alongside her NHS commitments.

We started with a history today and it would seem an hour isn’t long enough to detail my chaotic life (and I’m only mid-thirties) so will continue on Monday.