I’ve had a work capability assessment about 1 1/2 years ago, and have now been called in for a face to face assessment- I don’t know if it’s for PIP (recently awarded) or ESA. I’ve got severe recurring depression. I think just the stress from filling in the ESA form last autumn, and the worry about a face to face triggered a massive decline that resulted in a prolonged hospital admission. In the past few weeks I’d finally felt that I was getting a handle on things after 8 months of hell/horribleness. And now I’m trying to tell myself not to worry...but it’s not working and it’s all I can think about. I don’t want to be ‘not ok’, I want to get on with my life, get back to work eventually and be a decent mother to my children. I feel the whole re assessment process is counter productive- it’s prolonging the ‘bad’ periods by creating stress about whether I’m going to have my income taken away. I’m really concerned that I managed to get through a face to face once and didn’t get everything stopped, I can’t help but think that was just luck and the balance of probabilities is such that I’ll definitely not get through it this time. I don’t want to end up a suicidal mess again as it’s purely by chance that I’m alive now, I don’t know if I’d get through another bout of that. I realise this sounds a bit catastrophising...but my thoughts are if I can’t cope with the idea of an assessment then I’ve got a too low stress threshold and have pretty much failed at life. How can I get through the next 3 weeks without ending up a wreck? Or maybe that’s what the DWP want 