Constantly on edge worried partner will relapse

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My partner suffers from psychosis and since he was last ill I've spent every minute of every day worried it will happen again.

He is taking medication which does help to some extent but then there are side effects to them also.

I'm in a constant state of worry and it's not fair on my dc. I try to paint a happy face for them but inside I'm a nervous wreck.

I know he is the one struggling but no one sees how it's affecting me and I feel guilty telling anyone as he's the one with the illness.

I don't want to leave him but I don't want my dc growing up with me feeling like this.

It sounds like you have your own anxiety going on, it may have been caused/triggered by his illness but it's still real.

My dd struggles with her mental health and I developed severe anxiety a few years ago - I had some other stuff going on at the time but a lot of it was related to the sheer worry of caring for her. I had therapy myself which helped a great deal and, in turn, made me better able to support her.

You could speak to your GP and ask for some support, although I went privately in the end as the cbt offered on the nhs wasn't doing anything for me (though I appreciate it does help many people).

Thankyou for replying user. I feel guilty to say how I'm feeling as I feel like I should be supporting him and not loading him with more worries.

I agree that I probably need some therapy as that will,like you mentioned, make me more able to support him.