I get so scared

[Mummyanne]

I'm 19 and had a baby at 17. Me and my partner don't live together, we're working on it but it takes time. He works full time so It's hard to spend time together. I suffer with anxiety, depression, OCD and depersonalisation. And I have minor ASD. I haven't taken my tablet for a couple of days. (I forgot- it's citalopram ). I get major intrusive thoughts that seem to almost disappear a lot of the time but tonight I'm getting major intrusive thoughts about harming my partner and daughter; mainly my daughter. I know I would NEVER do it deep down but I just get so so scared and even though I know its not gonna happen I get so so so so scared and I don't know how to control the anxiety. I guess I'm just asking for is story's of positive outcomes and tips. Also some reassurance.

I don't have any personnel experience of this I'm afraid zbut I didn't want to read and run. Sorry to hear you are having these awful thoughts. If I were you I would be going to the doctors first thing in the morning to see if they can help.

Hi just seen this. I am terrible for remembering medication and am currently freaking out coz I have ran out and panic attacks are coming all the time.
Remember they are just thoughts. You are not going to act on them. Get back on your tablets. Is there someone non judgemental you can talk to irl till it passes?
I have bipolar and I argue a lot in my head between thoughts (usually harmful or negative ) and my normal self. At the weekend I had to force myself to stay away from my dd coz she was driving me crazy shrieking on the phone (I have a low tolerance for noise at the best of times ) and I wanted to get hold of the phone and smash it to pieces.
I hope you have support irl

Fwiw I was a teenage mum too. It's not easy xx