Depression is so frustrating!!!

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I have some much in my mind i want to do to be productive. But then i cant be bothered! I have no energy and just want to lay on the sofa. Then i get upset because i've done nothing and then its just a vicious circle.

I wish people who dont have depression understood. I often get my DM saying come on just get on with it. Or comments if my house is a mess. But what she doesnt realise is i hate it too. I want to clean the house and i want to do things.

I have anti depressants to take for the first time, but im scared of taking them. I'm scared for those first few weeks of feeling worse. I feel bad enough now as it is. I dont want my mental state to get worse.

Sorry im venting and have no one to talk to, so thought i would just write it all down.

Hi OP, I know it well! The terrible lack of motivation causing procrastination then the berating yourself vicious circle.
The things that work for me are this book:-

www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/0380810336/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?keywords=feeling+good+the+new+mood+therapy&pi=AC_SX236_SY340_FMwebp_QL65&tag=mumsnetforum-21&ie=UTF8&qid=1526200465&sr=8-1

Also check out the 'Pomodoro Technique' on YouTube, makes getting stuff done more manageable & doable.

The CBT exercises from the above book & the authors later books, I do weekly to keep my negative thinking at bay, enabling my mood to stay boyount & so keeping me interested in life.
I do the short depression questionnaire from the book, weekly, to check on my mood, because sometimes I don't realise I'm slipping down again!...first sign for me is lack of motivation! The questionnaire score usually confirms I'm depressed again, so I get my books & CBT notebook out & get doing the exercises.
I do another depression questionnaire afterwards & usually find my score has improved & I no longer depressed..and that is reflected in my upbeat mood.

Thank you I'll look into them. Hopefully it helps. I'm having talking therapy but not CBT.

Just taken my first tablet. Hopefully these start helping me soon

Hope you feel better soon. CBT is great as it tackles things head on & gives you ways to deal with problems & destructive thoughts, so you feel better quickly.