Oh today is not a good day........................am feeling very sad all of a sudden

[stoppinattwo]

Am gonna give work a miss today, dont know why I feel so down today, well maybe i do, but think im just being silly iykwim.

Im such a toughie sometimes, what is it called, brave front and all that, but sometimes it is just a bit too much.

speak to me in 5 minutes time and i will probably feel completely different.........today is a rollercoaster

wha happend>

oh same old same old lulu...........am gonna go n see the doc tomorrow, i need to sort this out

missed spooks before she was tryin to get me.

ok

try not to feel disheartened

you have a lot on your plate

a full time job

a lot of people relying on you for emotional support

you need to take a break and regain your strenght

no harm in that

very positive and strong thing to do

are you going to ask to be signed off>?

have not spoken to her today actually

no dont want to be signed off, Im going away for a week with the kids at half term....dp is staying here, got some stuff to do on the house. I just want some ime to enjoy them away from all the thoughts and stress here............i worry that if im off work it will stress me out - oh i dont know see what doc says

maybe being signed off would be best

you need some time alone !!! no DP , no kids, to nurture yourself and jsut breathe

I fell like im up to the brim with needy people. I want some time with my kids where i can see them and do stuff with them, that is when i am truley happy.

No pressure and nobody waiting to see what you do next. The kids need a break too, poor DS saw me lose the plot tonight.....really went to town on DH, he was being a needy prat...he has since apologised, I sound harsh i know but like is say he knows im cracking and he jsut bloody starts the victim thing again

it is hard going

and when you are not string in yourselfm but people expect it of you , it is hard

i must go to bed, but i will be around tomorrow

get to the docs, and take it from there

big hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

how are you today?

Hi lulu thanks for askin, went to the docs,..........got a bit upset there, he has prescribed some stuff that he said will help to get things in order, so hopefully, he wnted to sign me off but i think that would just stress me out more..........im on my hols in a week so i think i can muddle through for a week