Huge mood drop after mistake travelling

[rosamore]

DH and I have been in Marrakech with friends this week, they were very overwhelmed by the souks etc so I've taken charge of everything (ExH is North African so it isn't new to me), been a great tour guide to us and our friends and made everything very easy for everyone else. I was on such a high because I felt so capable and proud.

I just checked us in online for our flight home and realised that we need to have paper boarding passes. We fly with budget airlines all the time to visit family across Europe always using mobile tickets so I never even thought to check. Now, all of us (inc our friends) will have to pay £50 each to get our boarding pass at the airport. I know it isn't my fault and anyone else could have done some research for this trip and might have found out that you need paper boarding passes in Morocco, but I feel like it was my responsibility.

Since finding out, I honestly feel depressed. I feel defeated, deflated, useless, stupid and like I never want to move from my bed again because I'll probably mess things up further for everyone. It's making me question my ability to do all sorts of things including cope with new born and my older dc and consider whether I'm the best thing for them at all.

I can tell I'm spiralling but I just don't know what to do. It's one mistake and I wouldn't hold it against anyone else but I feel sure my friends and partner must hate me and my children must be embarrassed of me. I had severe depression and anxiety as a teenager and have struggled with seemingly random relapses ever since but this feels ridiculous even to me.

Im posting because I don't want anyone I'm with to know im feeling like this but I have to tell someone. Kind of hoping someone relates to this and can offer advice but also hoping none of you feel like this

Do your friends know anyone with a printer or is there anywhere nearby you can print them out at. You do sound like you are being very harsh on yourself, if it was your friend who had made the same error what would you say to her/him? I think you’’d be kinder than stay in bed so nothing ever goes wrong. Look after yourself and try to enjoy the end of your trip.

Can your hotel print them off for you?

In the kindest possible way, you need to get a grip. It's not a huge thing, especially if you can find a printer somewhere else. You haven't killed anyone, you haven't damaged anything... It's a small mistake and can be easily sorted.

The hotel will do it. I always have to get the hotel to do mine when travelling with work and it’s not a big deal. They do it all the time so try not to fret. You’ll get it done without paying

Oh you poor thing i totally relate to this big high then big low thing. I too would be on the brink of a big downward spiral.

You can't fix this, so you need to distract yourself. At the moment this feels terrible but I promise this feeling will go. In a week/ month whatever you will look back and feel totally ok with this.

Do you have any strategies? I would exercise, take a walk, listen to a hypnosis track.

You sound lovely BTW. A great friend and fab tour guide. Give yourself a break

X post - hotel print?

Or an internet cafe?