Is that even possible?
I was told as a teenager conceiving would be v difficult. Then once I met dh aged 29 we started ttc straight away. Took nearly 3 years. Had lots of investigations. Did conceive naturally just before starting treatment and now have three kids for which I am hugely incredibly grateful and count my blessings every day. When ttc I was obsessed. Spent hours every day on the ttc forums here. Was sad all the time.
Now I find myself being sad at all the time I spent sad if that makes sense. I look at my old posts here using advanced search (different user name though) and sob for myself. Every time I see a pic of that time I see sadness in my face even at happy events. I remember things by that being the day my period came or the day I thought I had a poas line. I have started crying about this randomly. It is a bit crazy - eldest dc is 7 so I should be over this by now.
I have scoured web looking for info on this. Lots on depression following infertility treatment but nothing on where no treatment needed in the end. Also it’s not just the years ttc but the years pre ttc thinking it would never happen, worrying about telling future partners I may never have kids etc.