Self harm - Not a big deal?

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Any opinions? For context I've harmed myself since I was a teenager, well 11/12. Recently started on a regular basis again (never actually stopped), fairly bad burns I guess, they get worse because I pick them open again and again every day.
The thing is my belief is that self harm is no longer seen as a big deal, most people do it and it's kind of not something that needs to be addressed. To be honest, knowing that is kind of liberating which is why I'm doing it more regularly and giving in to it rather than deal with the panic, frustration and feelings by resisting.
Just checking with the wisdom of mumsnet that I'm not being deluded or weird in my thinking.
Absolutely not advocating that others start hurting themselves, please don't. Just me, I don't feel anyway.

You need another outlet for the emotions that cause you to self harm.

Keep talking on here for sure.

You definitely need another way. Could be exercise? Doesn't have to be counselling. You just need a coping mechanism.

I'd kill myself but it would give my family more reason to hate me and I imagine all those people who pretend to be friends/family would pretend like they cared or no one would care. Neither is worse really.
Think of it daily so I hurt myself instead. It's an expression of what I can never put into words although I don't show anyone.
Everything's dark and bleak today. And you're the only people listening.

It's like any other addictive behaviour, we often don't realise how much it affects our lives, until we stop. Best of luck op

I used to find writting helped. Putting the things on paper I couldn't tell anyone. And I realised after I wasn't depressed any more, how much all my family and friends really did love me. I'm sure yours do too.

We are listening. But you need an actual RL professional to listen and help too.

Trust me they don't care.

They don't have to "care". They have to do their job and provide support and a treatment plan.

I meant 'friends'/family

Self-mutilation does seem to have increased, but it is still a big deal. The escalation in the severity of injuries makes it particularly dangerous.

I self-injured for 13 years, for years it was mostly "mild" then I had a really bad year and it escalated to more deadly injuries. That's when I voluntarily checked in to a program specialising in self-harm. I haven't self-injured in over 12 years now.

It's interesting to read pp saying that they started again after a long time without self harming. I stopped in late teens but had a bad patch about four years ago and now it's on my mind pretty much every day. I don't because I couldn't have my kids see it and get ideas, but that's the only thing stopping me right now. Last 6 months have been really hard, and have also had suicidal thoughts / feelings every day which only passed at Easter but are back yesterday and today.

OP I also dislike counselling and I don't want medication because of the side effects. I don't know what to do either. Often exercise, yoga etc helps but there are long periods when I'm struggling and it's hard. I don't have advice for you but please you sound pretty hopeless right now. I hope you find something else that helps.