Long story & I do have a GP appt tomorrow but I work in a very small office, just 2 of us, other person is male and doesn't believe in sick days so it makes it even more difficult. I had a miscarriage 7 years ago, had a child after this but suffered from pnd, dealt with that, mum then found out she had stage 3 cancer, she is ok, still tested every 6 months but clear for now, dad isn't well, hasn't been well for years, oh isn't well now either, possible MS, waiting for the neuro appt, I went into early menopause, having awful symptoms, flushes, moods, odd erratic bleeding despite no periods for over 12 months, palpitations (maybe I am not sure) just a really funny feeling in my chest on and off all day, makes me feel very strange, am really struggling to function, every day seems endless, I also volunteer time to school, I work full time, DD (almost 6) does a few after school activities, I can't remember the last time I slept for the entire night and every day I just wish I could go back to bed and sleep for a week. Also have a muscular problem with my hip muscles which if I do actually sleep for any length of time flares up and wakes me up. I know I need some help but I am terrified of being signed off by the gp - I am not sure I could face coming back to work, I feel like I am on the verge of a total mental breakdown and cry most days for a few minutes, in private, no idea why I just do, even tesco sometimes not having the right apples can set me off, do you think the GP would let me go on anti depressants with HRT? The only thing keeping me sane is my running, I run 3 or 4 times a week, I run and switch off for that hour after that reality returns.
Sorry for such a long tale I just felt like I needed to get it all out, I am not sure what I am actually going to say to the gp tomorrow without sounded like I have totally lost the plot with life