As per the title really.
When I'm feeling low I feel like everything is a personal attack on me by life in general (so not by anyone specific).
This includes things like when other people get something (I don't feel this way when they've earned it but rather when they've been given/gifted or won something).
When I'm at a low point things that are in no way personal feel like life has found a way to get me again. This can be things like not being able to make an appointment or having a routine inspection or appraisal at work.
I'm currently in the early stages of councilling (we're currently discussing my childhood but this feeling of "why always me" is something I would like to discuss).
Whenever someone points out to me a positive in my life a switch triggers in my head and I think "yes that's fair maybe it's not so bad" and then I feel guilty for being so negative about everything.
I'm feeling quite lonely at the moment, even though I am close to a few family members and have a good support network because I feel so ungrateful so don't want to discuss it with them, but I was just curious whether this is my personality and I'm a brat or whether it is the depression and if anyone else ever gets like this