Switched from Mirena to the mini pill last November as the IUD was reaching its expiry.
Over the past couple of months in particular I've been waking up early in the mornings and drifting in and out of sleep, my brain spinning with despairing thoughts and panics.
I've totally gone off my work, I'm tired all the time, and there are moments when I just can't stop crying.
I want to blame the hormones and the change in contraception, but it's also been a pretty big year for me. I moved an hour away from where I was living, to a very different area, and in with DP and his DS12, who's with us part-time. That dynamic has been really hard (my childhood was rough and watching him parent his DS / being around them together triggers a lot for me), and I've struggled to make friends and get settled here.
I've gone NC with my mother (sort of by accident, I just dropped contact without really deciding too and it had been 6 months before I realised), and I'm wondering if I'm actually just depressed?
I've been trying really hard to make things work in my new 'life', and I can't tell if it's the pill making me feel crazy or if I'm just genuinely unhappy with the choices I've made...
Can anyone offer an outside perspective? It's all a bit chaotic here in my brain...