Hi,
I don't really know where to start with this. I'm really sorry if it's rambly or unclear.
I check my alarm around 20+ times a day to make sure it is set because I'm so worried I won't wake up in time for work (I'm partly so worried because my supervisor is horrible and always 'joking' about firing people). Sometimes I check it 4 times in a row because I'm worried the pathways (?) between my eyes and brain are damaged so I'm not comprehending it correctly and maybe my brain tricked me into thinking it was on.
I also do this with the oven, I'm worried that whenever I walk past it my 'muscle memory' will switch it on without me realising and the house will burn down.
I'm generally a very anxious person and have been taking citalopram for a year.
I'm also very worried about losing my debit card, keys, phone etc I'm a constant checker but it's gotten worse within the last few months and it's exhausting.
I guess I'm just venting because this is becoming so hard for me, when I'm worried about checking things it feels like I have a physical weight in my brain.