It all began when I became interested in the afterlife and went to a group of like minded people that and the added stress of working it the NHS took its toll.
After a few weeks of attending the group I believe that I had brought some thing home with me and I became for a better word lazy.
I felt whipped and had no energy or interest in anything.
I could sleep for the voices telling me to hurt my self, you will never work again, your not worth it ect ect.
I was accused of many things at work which I honestly can't remember doing or not, these accusations became serious (no patients came to harm) and I had to leave under suspension with is a extremely long processes, of course making the voices worse
I became withdrawn and un sociable (not me at all)
5 months later I found my self on the brink of seriously hurting myself that night I was so scare to even be alone I slept on the sofa with my mum then something in my said ‘man up’ I then got up and went to bed didn’t sleep a wink but to me that was a success the day after I went to the doctors and explained everything thing and even the doctor cried and referred me to an early intervention team.
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