Feeling like I'm going to die

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Hi, not really sure where to put this is how to work it properly but I'm getting increasingly concerned that something is wrong with me.

My ds said to me tonight I live you mummy I don't want you to go anywhere or leave. Said of course I won't love you to. But now feeling panicky because I now convinced something will happen to me and ds will always remember I'm a liar. I'm halved convinced all the time I have some sort of cancer slowly growing and I'm going to find soon. I know it's not normal but not sure What to do about it.

But it's not just that feel detached. My dh has had a major op and in pain etc. And I don't seem to be able to muster up any sympathy or even care that much etc how much harder it's made me life as working full time and sorting a toddler and him. And I feel like shit for feeling like that. I have been quite tearful too.

AnyAnyonw gave any advice on how to snap our of it or to stop thinking about my impending death which is seriously freaking me out

Hi, I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. I’m not sure I can offer much advice but I thought you’d like to know I’ve felt like this too in the past. I think it’s just another type of anxiety, I convince myself regularly I am about to die - especially when traveling anywhere, I picture it happening, and I can turn anything into a worst case scenario. What has helped me is remembering all these times I’ve had these thoughts and actually nothing has happened. It’s just your mind working overtime by focussing on these thoughts. I’ve been reading Ruby Wax’s book called Frazzled - about mindfulness, and although I’m only about a quarter of the way in a lot of things have had a positive effect on me. She explains how our thinking patterns can be changed, we don’t have to be stuck with this negative ongoing cycle of bad thoughts. I also have a young child and am often panicked when I think of something happening to me for her sake. I think that is probably something all parents worry about to some extent though I know that doesn’t necessarily help you. But you’re really not alone. I’m trying to beat my anxious thoughts by working out how I can train my mind, just the fact that I’m doing something that might work makes me feel more positive that I can change it.

Thank you for taking the time to reply. I'll have a look at the book and hopefully it will help

Hi OP,

Sorry you're feeling like this.

It sounds like a form of anxiety.

It's not a good feeling, and I wish you luck in getting some support.