I'm really struggling at the moment.
My dh doesn't seem to understand that I don't feel fulfilled with my life, because I'm constantly being knocked back by illness. Lately I've had quite a lot of appointments, which take up most of the day as I like to leave early to park and then I'm not back until at least 5.30 because it's always an afternoon apt and they can never fit me in the mornings unless it's something like 9.30.
I've been really ill since Wednesday. At first I thought it was to do with my on going illness but then I started getting fevers and could hardly move so I'm guessing it's flu.
I have only really been able to get up and not feel like I've got to lie down today.
However, here is the question. I keep feeling unfulfilled with my life, because I'm always ill or at appointments. I am not on top of the housework and i feel my friends get fed up with me because I'm so negative. I've just got the point now where I'm wondering what's the point in even having a relationship where someone doesn't understand and constantly disagreeing with me when I have my low periods telling me it's my choice on how I view life.
This is where I wonder is he right, but then I think it's alright for him as he has a career he can hold down and is feeling fulfilled with it.
I also feel I can't win as he moans I take forever to get up but then says I should feel happy with the life I have.
I just feel alone at the moment and wondering if he is right and should I feel more appreciative of things??