I can't keep going

[colouringinagain]

I'm so exhausted. The kids aren't well, my sort of ex is talking about reducing his medication and I just can't keep doing this

What would you say to your GP?

You're not rubbish, you're doing great. It's always a journey.

Why did you split, and how long ago was it? There would have been good reason,

It's not working

Would a bath help? Bizarrely, I always find a bath really helps if I need a good cry....may be all that water

Split last Feb. OH has Bipolar badly. Finally diagnosed last Feb after 8 awful years

Bipolar is an awful disease. And awful for those who love them

You have done really well to cope for this long

Dcs been struggling. It seems to catch up with me in waves

He often told me to stop being so negative.

Thank you x

Well you've had eight awful years. That's always going to be a shock to the system when you break free. But you did it. Feel,proud. You don't need to live like that anymore.

Kids are resilliant, don't worry about them. They have you, and they will adjust. You are not responsible for your ex. Don't fall into his mind games where he wants attention or you to be responsible. Don't engage when he says things about his medication. You're not responsible for him, don't let him try to make you.

You're doing great so far, and it will get easier.

Thanks bluntness he said recently he wanted to reduce his medication despite only being on one of the two the psych recommended and this being his up time - crises due this autumn winter

But then he's completely normal organising mother's day stuff with dcs and it is totally frying my brain

Christian marriage of 20 years I'm finding v hard to end. Though family and friends v supportive. In sickness and in health is beating me round the head

I an the child of a bipolar parent. It is ok for your dcs to know that dad is poorly and that is absolutely not their (or your) fault:

Oh gosh. Thank you.

And it is totally ok to think about yourself and your children. Whatever your beliefs - no one should live in fear or just plain miserable

Wow. Thank you. That means a lot.