I have recently turned 40 and wondered if I am having some sort of mid-life crisis. I just struggle to see the point in it all/ feel like I've wasted my life. I am married to a great guy who I love very much but we don't have children (wanted them but not an option for us, sadly). I have my own business which is going ok, but I used to really enjoy it, now I find it a struggle to get the work done as I feel a lot of it is boring and repetitive and all enjoyment/ enthusiasm has gone. I also work from home alone which is a godsend for my social anxiety/ medical condition but can be a bit isolating. We don't have much of a social life and tbh even when my husband does suggest something fun I can't be bothered/ it seems far too much effort. I just sit around watching rubbish on TVs instead, which is boring but all I have the energy to do. I don't work that many hours yet the house is always a mess. I have gained a lot of weight and struggle to take care over my personal appearance. One long term contract for work basically provides 90% of my business and also gives a lot of recommendations etc too but the problem is I feel unable to take time off. I am constantly worried about losing the money and them going elsewhere e.g. If I take 2 weeks holiday. On the other hand the work from this contract is boring and tedious but it pays well. I feel trapped by this contract as I really need some time away from the business to straighten my head out but really cannot afford to mess them around. I feel like I have achieved nothing with my life - I am unskilled, will never be a mum, spend much of my time getting angry or crying and struggle to leave the sofa. I don't actually know what I want or how to sort my life out. I don't even know what the point of this post is, other than I am deeply unhappy with my life... on the other hand my lovely husband is happy in his life, career etc (obviously wishes I were happier too), everything seems to be working out for him. How do I begin to get happier/ more motivated and enthusiastic about my life?