I think I may be having some sort of breakdown

[trickynicky]

I am working 2 jobs - averaging 60 hours a week in order to keep our heads above water. We have ridiculous debts and my dh has bad depression and has been worse than useless in helping out. I am beyond exhausted...to the point where I have now taken a day sick because I feel spaced out/dizzy but worse, have just sat here and cried all day long. I can't see a way out, I feel overwhelmed, anxious, embarrassed, sick, exhausted...hopeless. I have to work a night shift tonight...if I don't, we won't eat next week literally. I have no friends who know about my situation (or family) - they think we are OK and I've always been seen as strong. But I am lost. I am on the verge of walking out of this house and never coming back but I have nowhere to go. My dd is due home from school and she's the only thing that keeps me from just giving up.... not sure where to go, what to do...

Didn't want to read and run OP. I don't really know what to say to help; but here for a hand hold

I do think you need to tell someone in RL about your struggles though, online venting can only take you so far

Hi trickynicky, I'm so sorry you're struggling. With all that going on, dealing with it more or less alone, its no wonder. Please do confide in friends and family, maybe some of them can help to support you - not necessarily financially, but emotionally and practically.

You need to take some time to take care of yourself, if only for your DD's sake as you're no use to anyone in this state. Is there any way you could be signed off with stress if you visit your GP?

I'm hoping this bump will allow someone with more of a clue about mental health issues to see your post and off you something more constructive, but in the meantime I didn't want to read and run

*offer you, not off you! That's not going to help anyone

Speak to someone about the debts. Step change? Talking about it will help and tackling that may reduce some of your stress?

You might not see a way through at the moment but there IS one and in a few years time this will just be a horrible memory.

You need to contact Step Change. It sounds as though you could double your hours but still not get rid of the debt.

My friend's husband works for something similar to Step Change and he says the relief that's felt when someone helps to get their money under control is just unbelievable. He said people look years younger. And it's so easy to do. He just asks people to bring in their bills (often they're still in envelopes so don't worry if that's the case for you) and he helps deal with it all.

If you're in the NW then PM me.

What is your debt made up of? Mortgages? Pay day loans? The way forward is to pay off debt even if it means selling off items or the car or even the house. It's not sustainable the way you have it now. The first step is to talk to a trusted friend. Look at programs such as 'Money moron' or 'Til debt do us part' for ideas how to realistically actually address your debt situation. It's not hopeless, but it might take some big changes.

Also take up on the offer to pm MyBrilliantDisguise.

Thank you everyone for responding. I went to work last night and whilst I struggled through, I'm feeling equally awful today. We have sold anything worth money - including our car - and our house is on the market but is not selling - has been on for several months. I think it's because it looks so tatty - it's clean but the fixtures/fittings are falling to pieces! We have priced it appropriately and put the price down several times. Sometimes I just feel that everything that can go wrong for us, goes wrong and there is no light. Thanks - I've heard of Stepchange - if we could sell the house then it would clear a huge amount of our debts so I've been hanging on and hanging on thinking that it would not be for long. Yesterday I reached rock bottom to be honest. I called the samaritans for a chat which helped a little. I've made an appointment to see my GP. I just need a REST. I am tired through to the bone and just think that if I could just have some time off I might be able to get perspective back but I just can't afford to take a day off. The last day I had off was 3 weeks ago - I have an afternoon off this Sunday...but that's it for the next month. :-(

Nothing to anyone can say/do really but I do appreciate your support...