I know I need help but it feels impossible!
I am on medication which I take religiously but it seems it's never long term happiness.
I've also been diagnosed with BPD & it's knocked me hugely.
Birthday today, was so so excited for it, sounds silly but last year wasn't great so really put a lot into this one. Had so much planned all week.
Well, it went to fucking shit. I've cut everyone close to me out, it's pushed me over the edge.
I'm a crying mess on the sofa realising my DS deserves a mother who's mentally stable who doesn't let small trivial things get to her.
I just want to die 