I started therapy today after horrible split with ea ex. What emerged from underneath it all however was a very real feeling that I might have been abused by a male neighbour as a small child.
This would have been pre verbally when I would have been around two years old. I've often thought about this neighbour and find myself thinking about this period of time a lot although I couldn't tell you what he looked like. It's very dreamlike really.
I'd say I was over sexualised as a child and teenager and have strong feelings around shame, anger and low self esteem. What emerged today was a really strong sense of something having been terribly wrong and I just really have no idea what actually (if anything) happened.
I don't think I could discuss with parents as they'd be devastated if they thought anything like that had happened but I'm wondering what to do about this feeling and thoughts.
Feeling very uncomfortable in my own skin since session this afternoon but the discussion was in a large part about that period of time, which seemed to hit me out of nowhere. Could i just be making it all up? What do I do?