Thought I was over this.

[ClaryFray]

My emetaphobia has come back! I largely had it under control from when it was controlling my life a few years ago.

I've had an incident in the kitchen where something fell of the fridge and I bent down, to pick it up. Had the taste of vomit in my mouth. Had to rush to brush my teeth to remove the taste. Now sat in my room while DS plays and DP cooks worrying that if I eat I'll vomit.

I just want to cry. I'd rather die than vomit. I can't do this again

You can get support and treatment from your local IAPT, OP. Just ring and self refer.

Emetophobia sounds so awful to deal with as it's something you can't fully avoid, unlike flying for example where you can choose not to get on a plane. I have spider phobia and it's awful knowing that it being triggered is largely out of my control so I feel for you 💛 You don't have to live with this though, there are effective treatments out there.