Hi,
I am suffering terribly with anxiety. About work (used to be a high-flyer but since having children have lost all my confidence with younger single women - including my maternity cover -challenging me for my job), my health (post a very traumatic admission to ITU requiring artificial ventilation prior to diagnosis of Addison’s disease...my adrenal glands don’t work any longer), fertility (related to Addisons I have higher chance of early menopause), weight (history of anxiety), my children (really struggle with my 3yo who is on spectrum) and my friends ( feel like I have none left because I am so boring and worrying all the time).
I don’t sleep, find myself googling for hours about when and whether we should start TTC no. 3. I keep ‘wimping out’ as very nervous about the whole thing, whether I might bleed to death on operating table, whether I would cope with three children ages 4 and 2 and a baby when the baby arrived. Whether I would have really bad depression again.
I am just so stressed. And exhausted. Is this it? Is this what I will be for the rest of my life? I’m exhausted.
Practical tips and reassurance welcomed!
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