Not sure what to do next. Struggling.

[Intheblackhole]

Hi I'm struggling a lot at the moment. I am having counselling for a traumatic incident and I can't maintain myself on an even keel after a session. It feels as if I am left with all of this trauma and difficulty to cope with on my own. It feels like I can't cope but also that I have no choice to carry on. It also feels like my counsellor doesn't fully understand.
Has anyone had a similar problem or can you just keep me some company I am at the end of my tether with all of this.

Hi I was really unwell with PTSD last year, trauma is a tricky thing. My counsellor luckily realised that she was out of her depth and passed me on to a psychologist unfortunately he wasn't a trauma specialist and made things much worse. I ended up seeing someone else privately for something called IEMT (integrated eye movement therapy) similar to the more mainstream EMDR which was instantly effective. The therapist explained that when something is trauma related talking therapy can make things worse as talking about the trauma can re-traumatise you. I would suggest looking for someone who specialises is trauma and can find a more appropriate form of treatment for you.

Thankyou. I know that even in CBT trauma therapy the story is told, but I will look into IEMT and there is something available locally privately called rewind therapy. I think it might help with this incident but not so much with the context . Worth a try.
I hate how this can appear to destabilise me.

I was a complete mess, couldn't even work out how to make a cup of tea. Memory and concentration non-existent I could forget the beginning of a conversation before I got to the end.

I think trauma feels so different from other emotional issues. When I'm triggered it seem to play out in its own way. I'm wondering whether by challenging myself too much with too much material I retraumatised myself and became overwhelmed.