I wish I'd died.

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I had a car accident at the weekend. It was bad, the car flipped and rolled, ended up in a ditch upside down. Everyone keeps telling me how lucky I am to be alive, which I am. Relatively uninjured considering. All I keep thinking about is how I wish I'd just died and I don't know why. I don't feel traumatised by it, I got back behind a wheel the day after. I just find life hard and we spend most of it doing stuff we have to do rather than we want to do.

Sorry to hear about your accident and that you wished you had died.

Life can be hard but it can be improved.
I'm not the best person to talk about that though as having a very crap day!!

I have had some severe depressive episodes & take anti depressants for it as well as anti psychotics for schizo affective disorder... I used to wish I could die & regularly felt suicidal but now I can honestly say I don't feel that way at all despite having a bad day.

Maybe you will feel better too one day; I would see a gp and discuss your feelings with them.

I will feel better for a few weeks or even months. Then I'll feel like this again!

Hey! There must be something or someone in your life that wants to see you happy. Don't go wishing you died that day, consider it as a new start.

Perhaps take up a hobby or an evening class. Meet new people, try cooking new things at home.

Life can be miserable and mundane but we need to remember that the world is full of goodness also. There is so much to explore so much to learn.

Sorry about the accident, give yourself some time to process. You may be in shock.

Look after yourself... and we are here to listen ... (or read)

Definitely go and see your GP. It maybe that you are still in shock, but you have been through an horrendous thing no matter how 'lucky' you are that it wasn't worse.

You're saying this isn't a one-off, after the accident, but you have felt like it at other times?

Hello OP, we're really sorry to hear you're feeling this way.

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SunsetOnTheHorizon that's not an option for me. I'm a single parent and don't have the kind of support to be able to do things like that. During the week it's nursery drop off, work, pick up, home, bath and bed then jobs I don't sit down til at least 9. My son has tea at nursery so I don't even have time to have tea! I love my job but it's demanding.

I'd never do anything like kill myself or whatever. It's just how I feel. I love my son so much and would never want to miss out on seeing him grow up. Apart from him pretty much everyone else in my life has let me down it's just hard. I know everyone else's lives are hard but I can't help how I feel.

Mxyzptlk yes I feel alright for a few months and then like this. I've been like it since maybe the age of 13 but I don't know why. I think it's just me.