This might come across as strange or weird but lately I'm thinking a lot about my childhood and I'm very confused and stressed. I remember 'something happening' in my childhood. I remember it was on a Sunday because a certain programme was on television. I remember feeling 'worried and sacred' and 'ashamed' and it wanting my mum to find out. That's all I remember. I don't know who did it or what actually happened, all I remember was that detail. Is it possible for my mind to block out being abused or who was the abuser? I've been going over and over about this and the possibility I was abused and not knowing who by is destroying me. Sometimes when my husband touches me a certain way I flinch, and tell him to stop. I've never understood why? Now I think it's the after affecting of this something that's happened. I'm worried because what if it was someone woes been around my own kids from my family. Why can't I remember???