Has anyone else been diagnosed with PND after the first year? I've been suffering since my boy was about 3 months but only got diagnosed on Tuesday, he's 2.5 years. I think the feelings crept up on me and I just thought I was a bad mother and selfish. I'm always irritable, stressed, some days I just have no mental energy to leave the house or do anything, motherhood has always felt like a duty and I get very little enjoyment from it. I've always felt we haven't bonded as well as I'd like, like I don't love him "enough" but I've persisted trying to spend lots of time with him, cuddling and reading, hoping this would change but if anything everything has got harder in the challenging toddler stage compared to the baby stage. I remember hating the baby stage and not being able to wait to go back to work, I went back at 9 months and the distraction has been so welcome but in days where I'm home alone with him I've not been able to cope. DP has talked about having another baby and I've finally admitted to myself I am not well. But the seed of self-doubt comes in, even though I've been diagnosed now.. maybe I am not depressed (because I'm ok at work, surely being depressed means hating life generally?), maybe I am just a bad mother.
Other experiences would be gratefully received as I can't find much online about being diagnosed years after birth.