I feel very empty, lost. My sister died last May and I cannot come to terms with it. It is affecting my mental health, as I have a real problem dealing with loss. I have little confidence and self esteem, but to the outside world I’m a ‘coper’ and I have to say, I put on (unconsciously) a good facade.
I desperately want to be ‘jolly’, is that possible? I just feel so low and empty constantly. I have been prescribed citalopram, but I really don’t want to rely on medication.
I don’t suppose any of that makes sense, I guess I just want to know if anyone else has this real ‘emptiness’?