is this a normal kind of feeling?

[greenbottle]

I suffered bad depression 7 yrs ago, it took a long time to clear but it did and I managed with help to rebuild my life. I have just been off sick nothing to do with depression i hasten to add. I had lots of strong painkillers and a week in hospital. Now the pain has almost gone, the pain killers have run out, Im here feeling very blue and very lonely!
What I want more in the world is to go back into hospital-why i dont know, when I was in there i didnt get any special att or that many visitors.
Now I crave it and even tried to bring an operation forward.
I have a DH who is ok but over the last few yrs has become a tad dominating.
Now Im left feeling really low, could this be coming off strong pain killers which i took for 4 wks!
And why do I wish to go to hosp (and no I dont mean as an inpatient spent 6mts as one of them!)

I had PND after DS and I remember thinking longingly of the hospital ward - think it was because all the decisions of daily life are removed from you - don't have to think about the house, the shopping, what meals to plan etc, you can be in your own little bubble and when you are feeling blue, that kind of thing feels rather attractive....

I'm by no means qualified in this, just speaking from personal experience...perhaps a chat with your doctor would help? Pain killers can be a wee bit addictive so maybe thats not helping...

HTH and you feel better soon

I agree with Nikki - that hospital was a bit of a respite from day to day crap, so could be appealing in that sense, and that you and your well being are the centre of the attention, which doesn't often happen as a mum. And possibly withdrawing from the painkillers may not be helping. If you went through a very scary/debilitating illness/injury then you could be feeling a bit down as the tail end of recovering from that. If you carry on feeling like this (or have been feeling this this for weeks already), then have a chat to your docs about the way you have been feeling.

Thanks everyone, guess I was kind of feeling a freak, but what you have said kind of makes sense in a funny kind of way!

TBH I thought I was getting that Munchauhussens(sp)