Anyone feel guilty for those around you?

[buzzingmama]

I have had serious ongoing mental health issues for a number of years. I suffer with severe anorexia and depression, I have tried to end it via overdose and ligature a couple of times but thank goodness stopped and screamed for help as felt what the hell am i doing to my family and friends??! My anorexia is worsening physically recently and I'm just losing the will to live. Im telling myself its bloody selfish to end it all. What will happen to my family? My mum said she would kill herself if I did.. My next thought is maybe I'll just let my anorexia get the better of me and I'll die 'naturally' from physical causes related to weight loss etc.

Does anyone else suffer with this incredible guilt and torn between your illness and worry for others? Hope i'm not alone

So sorry to hear that you are feeling like this I'm not suffering in this way, but my dd (in her 20's) is. She has just been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She gets very depressed, does have suicidal thoughts but same as you, worries about the effect on family. So you're not on your own in feeling this way. Haven't got any advice today as still getting my head round dd's diagnosis, but please try to keep going (I know that's easier said than done) Accept support when/if it's offered. Is there an anorexia support group in your area? We (well, dd) is going to join the local bpd support group and we're also going to try MIND. It's a long road isn't it (mental ill health)? but I really hope things get better for you. Hopefully other posters will join you later with advice x

Thank you falmer, I hope your daughter and yourself are coping with her diagnosis and getting support! Hopefully yes some other posters will join xx