Hi,
I’m been suffering with anxiety and a bit of depression for about 8 months now. My DB took his life (then I faced all the stress of taking care of DM with MH issues who also dislikes me) then 3 months later DH was diagnosed with terminal cancer and given a year to live.
When younger I can see I had bad anxiety and depression but noth8ng was done about it at the time. Early 20s Dr said I had GAD and I went through melancholic spells but struggled through.
After this last 12 months I went to the Dr and was given citalopram, initially 20, then 30 after things got worse. Last check up the Dr suggested I take up running. I never did, felt guilty and was scared to go back to Dr in case I got into trouble. Recently tried to renew my prescription but receptionist wouldn’t do it over the phone and every time I tried to do it online it crashed. Gave up and a few days later I managed to do it online.
Dr phoned on Friday whilst I was out walking the dog and wanted to talk to me about asking for so many tablets. (So I imagine my order I thought crashed went through). Made me feel like a fake but at least thought there were tablets when I was running out. Went to chemist today and my dose has been lowered to 20.
Can your dose just be changed? I feel like people think I’m faking it. I should have went back but I didn’t want to be told off for not helping myself. I’m really struggling in general now and forgot where I lived the other day and got lost as I tried make my way to the other side of town, I cry all the time and get bad heart burn and stomach pains. I feel like I’m outside of myself or using my body as a puppet and I need the strength to do normal shit like tidy the house and make dinner on top of this.
I had really bad side effects (felt drunk, numb, dizzy, sleepy) when I went on citalopram and feel like I really need it and don’t want it to be reduced.