Feel like health anxiety is killing me

[bigfatmeanie]

I’ve had anxiety for years but since the birth of dc 3 my health anxiety has sky rocketed.
My main phobia is that I’ve got a prolapse, I find it difficult to even say or type the word without feeling like I’m going to vomit. I end up googling stuff and scaring myself.
I saw a consultant almost 5 years ago who told me that my walls were weak but it would be fine.
Saw several gps since then who have said the same, including a very thorough dr at our practice who said there was nothing there 6 months ago and that I just needed to do pf exercises.
Every time I get a spell of anxiety I start to worry about this, I become over sensitive to the slightest sensation and the draggy feeling down which I’ve had a couple of times a month since dc was born now sends me into a spiral of panic.
It is literally crippling me, I’m miserable and snappy all the time, feel terrified of waking up in the morning.
Just don’t know what to do, so embarassed that I sound like a total loony. I’ve tried sertraline before and wondering about prozac/fluoxetine this time? Just totally fed up

Sending {flowers}. Don’t scare yourself with internet searches which cause more anxiety. If you have a good GP go and chat, it’s important that you get some help with this. I’ve just had my antidepressants changed as I was feeling awful for ages; good luck and please don’t worry.

Thanks, I just wish I could say to myself that I’ve been like this before and I always come out the other side. The anxiety comes first then it latches on to any phobias I might have.
I’m so sick of it now, poor dh is such a gem, he really works his arse off and then comes home and helps too. I feel like he and the kids deserve to be happy not living in this perpetual misery

My health anxiety has spiralled since the birth of my daughter it cripples me I've lost count of the number of 111 calls I've made about us both over the last years. I spend hours some days thinking about conditions we both may have and how I would cope with them if we had them. It's making me miserable. I'm pregnant again at the moment and already having lots of thoughts of anxiety because I have diabetes and I'm worrying they will put me on insulin and I'm scared.

im the same but mine is cancer everytime i get a weird pain or a mark on my body, my mind goes into panic mode! its an awful thing to have as you feel so silly over things your thinking about in your head! my doctor has put me on cetroplan! i feel ok but iv recently had another episode! i find talking things thru helps aswel! even if just on here or a family member!
and stop googling! as hard as it is! it always gives the worst symptom 1st so makes you feel worse.

Thanks, I find if I keep myself busy I can distract myself but it’s so hard when the “problem” is attached to you!
It’s so overwhelming isn’t it? It’s almost like a big wave of panic washes right over you!

yes its a horrible feeling! i went thru a phase of being at the doctors loads in 1 month! i never normally go but since having my 3rd baby iv been really bad! ur doing the best thing by keeping busy, trying to change the way you think! easier said than done!
but also speaking about it is good.