Honestly I'm so fed up with living with anxiety.
It controls my whole life all my days.
Every second I have something that makes me feel so Ill.
I really need to find a way to deal with this better.
My husband is supportive but is always asking me what's wrong or am I in a mood in front of the kids which makes it worse.
I've tried talking him and telling him what's wrong and that I cannot help getting so low.
When he's not with me someday I just cannot breath I don't tell him that because he has to work.
The kids I hate them being at school I miss and worry about them all day.
My friends don't get it.
They are great but I think honestly that they think I'm okay and life goes back to normal.
Last Friday I had the worse panic attack ever and the kids saw it.
It was awful.
I've been to the doctors but there's a long waiting list for therapy and the pills don't work for me.
This has been over two years now.
It started when I lost my Dad very quickly to MND it was horrific.
Is there anything I can do to make my days easy when I'm alone?.