Self harm

[NonePlusFive]

I don't know what's up with me, I'm itching to hurt myself. I'm looking at razor blades- this is something I haven't done in years.
I'm confused to be honest, it just started a couple of days ago. But I feel like if I start again, that's it. It's not good.
In some ways life is going so well, but behind it all there's so much unresolved crap that I can't start to get past. Yesterday the thought popped into my mind to end my life. I just don't know how to make it better.
Has anyone else had this experience? I'm so ashamed.

Sympathy. Can you look into getting counselling or seeing the GP? In the meantime, can you punch some pillows to let off some emotion/rage/frustration?

Oh I feel you.

Is there anything else that helps? Hot shower? Rubber band? Massaging your hands?

You can get through this. Don't be ashamed to ask for help.
xx

I cracked and hurt myself. How do you get past feeling like this? I don't think I can handle feeling things.

Please anyone?
I'm a student healthcare professional.
Terrified of jeopardising my chances of getting through this course but i know it's not right - well I know other people will think it's not right.
I went back to counselling again last year and it was useless again. I don't need someone to look sad at me.
Please what am I going to do?
Pretty sure I'm on asd spectrum as is my dad,if that helps.

Do you feel like you can speak to someone, if you would like some help? Your GP? As you're studying is there a provision for counselling/therapy as part of your college/university? I know you've said you've had counselling before but IME it can take a few therapists to find the right one for you.

I understand feeling ashamed, and like it's 'not right', but SH really is quite common and is your way of coping at the moment - a symptom of the way you are feeling.

I've had a relapse too recently, after 13 years. I've tried to accept it for what it is, as fighting against it and labelling it as wrong was making things worse for me. You're not alone, OP.