Feel like I can't cope and I'm weak

[canderella]

Hi all. I hope someone can help as I feel really bad. I am a final year nurse but have already taken two sick days in the past two weeks as I’m simply not coping. I lost my mum four month ago and was fine until a month ago. I lost a baby I really wanted just before Christmas and I’ve been an emotional wreck since. I’ve started crying more sporadically and cannot sleep. Last night I got three hours so had to call in sick cause I simply could not fulfil a 13 hour shift on 3 hours sleep. I plan to attend counselling and see my gp tomorrow but I feel like no one will understand and that all my sick leave will impact me getting a job once qualified. I feel like I’ve let people down and no one will understand. I don’t have a very stable home as I don’t get on overly well with my dad and I have no one else I can talk to. If anyone here can advise or sympathise I’d love to hear experiences or opinions thank you

Blimey, you've been through two horrendous events (I'm so sorry for your losses) and you have a really stressful job - two sick days for that is honestly nothing! You've not let anyone down, and I'm sure people will understand why you have needed this time off. Is there someone associated with your course (a tutor, student support, that sort of thing) who you could talk to. It might well be possible/worth considering taking a block of time off to recover. Hugs and

You've coped with one hell of a lot. I thoroughly recommend a book called "Depressive illness - the curse of the strong" by Dr Tim Cantopher. It really helped me.