Feeling worthless

[Debbie7612]

This has gone on for a few weeks now and it’s starting to baffle me. At the end of every day, after the kids have slept off, I weep my eyes out on my bed. I feel worthless. I feel like they got a bad bargain of a Mum. I feel so sorry for them. And then I just feel so generally sad and so tired that I just cry.
Just now, thought I’d spend the night watching telly with dh but it’s come over me again. What should I do? Is it a phase? I went back to work recently, in a call centre. My work colleagues are lovely people but I feel a bit shite about my role and myself being there

Oh OP I am so sorry

Don't have much useful advice but you jus go to a GP and see about getting on anti depressants maybe or getting some counselling?

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. And I'm sure you're a wonderful mum who works hard to provide for your kids, dont be so hard on yourself.

Everything will be okay soon x

I'm sorry you feel like this. Why do you feel shite about your job? Is it the job or is it being away from your kids?
What does your DH say?

Thank you so much I do appreciate this

Maybe all, I’m stressed and tired. I chose to work because I couldn’t handle staying home and had to go out. But now I miss my kids but the thoughts of how I used to feel at home stopping me from quitting. But I still feel shite and I don’t know why. I wonder if my kids are happy. My daughter I know is doing so well in nursery I wouldn’t dream of moving her but I still don’t know 😭😭, I feel like a bad mother

Joopy he doesn’t know. He has no idea. I’m too exhausted to speak up

Please tell him. How old is your daughter? When my son was about 1 I desperately wanted to return to work. Though once he started walking (4 months later) I was fine. I started work when he was nearly 3 now he is 4 and I would love to be at home with him. :(

Hi Joopy, my daughter is 15 months. I’m too scared to stay at home. I could manage easier when my now 5 year old were that age because lots of baby and Mum groups about but now almost all centres are closed down. Apart from baby weighing clinics nothing is going on. I have no friends. It’s awfully lonely in my head and home and DH travels a lot.

Ok, to make mum friends have you heard of 'mush' it's like tinder for mums.
Secondly, how is the call centre job going? Do you like your job?

No I haven’t. I’ll look it up straight away. Thanks so much 🙏 As for Job, it’smy colleagues that keep me going. It’s a telephone debt collection role and I think I may not like it very much.