Is this a sign im going manic?

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Diagnosis questioned as BPD. Though i suspect bipolar.

A lot of anxiety the past few days which has resulted in a shift of mood.
Today i started meds. Lamotrigine and buspirone.
Tonight my mind is going into overdrive over the possibilities of where your mind goes when in a coma.
Really curious! Wondering what happens with your consciousness and where you go when you are in a comatose state.

Then i go deeper and wonder what would happen if a psychedelic drug was added to the mix. They supposedly heighten the consciousness. Could a coma and psychedelics release your full subconscious potential? Where would it lead?
Deeper again and i question alternate realities etc.

Its not the first time my mind has wandered to these places. It wanders there quite often as it is all stuff i am genuinely interested in. Only sometimes i get so absorbed (like i feel now) and it leads to almost being my main thoughts and hours and hours of research.

For the record i do not take drugs, or even drink. I have never tried a psychedelic drug.

I have bipolar and I wouldn’t say that having deep thoughts is particular to mania. You can be totally mentally healthy and have these thoughts and discussions.

You’ve also just started meds that mess around with your brain chemistry, so if it’s doing weird things then it’s not that surprising.

No, I think your questions are of the type that could well be asked by either children or research scientists. Here's another one for you: where does a running software go when the computer is turned into sleeping mode?

I have bipolar and lamotrigine sends me high

Its reassuring to know that it doesnt mean i am going high.
My mind was just firing away lastnight, completely different to the past couple of weeks.

It probably is just from starting the meds.
Most SSRI's make me become impulsive. Last time i had lamotrigine i am sure i was ok.
I feel ok this morning. Very sluggish, brain included.
Interesting question hevonbu

Anxiety usually means mood coming down - awareness of risk instead of acting without thinking etc so often a good sign?

(Lamotrigine and buspirone are both drugs btw)

I meant i dont take drugs that are not prescribed.

My anxiety is pretty much constant so i cant really judge anything based on that. I just know extra stresses have elevated my anxiety and a big shift in mood since i had the medication.

SSRI's i dont take anymore due to them sending me somewhat 'high' so i guess im worried these are doing the same.
Maybe it has been psychological.
Time will tell i suppose.

I am bipolar and my daughter has border line personality disorder. The two are very different. I think thoughts like the ones you describe all the time apart from when I am incredibly depressed/low and then its like my brain just freezes and goes into buffer mode. Very minimal activity and I struggle to even recall my own vital statistics such as name. address, height. Its almost like watching myself on a video that has been paused.

Give it time to get your meds into your system. I'm sure it will pass.

I am hoping it does pass.
I have been so much more talkative than usual today. I have bought 3 echo dots, a wifi lightbulb, a sunrise alarm clock and god knows what else.

On a positive note on spending money, i paid off a bill.
I am seeing my CPN tomorrow so will mention all of this to her

I didnt get to see my CPN today but i am pretty sure i am hypomanic or something.