Tired of saying how I feel

[CrazyCatMum]

What’s the point?
Does it change anything?
I’m just left feeling empty, useless and a burden.

But if I don’t tell them then how can I expect them to be able to help?

Nothing feels real anymore, feels like I’ve just crashed but can’t seem to work out what’s in my head properly and when I do it feels like all I hear from them is bla bla bla.
It feels like constant ultimatums from them. If I don’t do this they will do that, if I don’t do that they will do this.

I don’t feel safe but if I tell them that then I have a hundred questions, have to agree to a safe plan or crisis or IHTT or hospital. It all feels too much too many choices can’t work them out, just wanna curl up in a ball and hide from the world.

I don’t even know if this makes sense 😢😢

Sounds exactly like me. Who are you talking to? Have you seen your gp?

I’ve been speaking or trying tomspeak to the crisis team and ooh cpn. They keep asking what can they do to help? But I don’t know what that is.
My go just tells me I should be in hospital end of conversation.
I’m physically drained 😢

Have you read 'The power of now'? IMO BETTER than counselling.

Mine was down to hormone imbalance apparently, I'm on sertraline now.
Ask to speak to a different gp, one that doesn't sound like a dick

My gp is normally ok but makes it clear that my psychiatrist is the one that makes all the decisions about my mental health..
I’ve had lots of blood tests done, I have an under active thyroid gland and some times my liver functions isn’t great due to my lithium.

I feel like I’m a burden on the services, that I’m taking from someone that really needs the help, or even wants it.
I don’t want to seem like I’m ungrateful I do really appreciate it I’m just so tired to think straight or trust anyone 😢😢

You are not a burden and you deserve to get the help you need to be happy again xx

Read the book.