I don't know anyone in RL that worries like I do

[Peggyandkitty]

Hopefully someone can relate to what I am like and perhaps we won't feel so alone.
Where to start? Basically I am currently caught up in a cycle of anxiety. Worrying about things that are coming up and assuming the worst. Its what I do and it has become a habit that I can't get out of.

My mind focuses on one thing and I ruminate and make myself ill with worry and tbh they aren't awful things. They are things that I imagine that everyone else would consider for a few minutes and then move onto something else.
Its not exactly ruining my life but its not making it very happy. I feel kind of paralysed by it and in a kind of limbo. I tell myself that once this thing is sorted, I will be fine and happy again, and I will be, for a while until the next thing. Sorry sounding a bit vague.
I have been on medication in the past with slight benefits and had some CBT but it didn't do much good.
I'm bloody sick of myself!

I can relate to this, my mind is constant over drive worrying about little things that no one else gives a second thought. If I mention my worry at that time then it's shrugged off but in my head I have played out every worse possible outcome. I worried about something (work) which kind of ruined Christmas as it's all I thought about then when it was sorted and found out it's nothing and sorted easily I now worrying about something else (does this make sense). Sorry I don't have any helpful advice but just wanted to let you know your not alone.

I know what you’re talking about. I’ve had anxiety for several years now and there are phases where I feel strong and battle ready. And there are times where I am sick and tired of it. I feel like I’ve overcome an obstacle, a worry or a major setback only to know that the next one is already waiting. It’s like a cycle of hell.

Today I woke up and felt anxious for no reason at all. Usually there are actually things that make me anxious but today...nothing at all. I actually called in sick and now feel worse because of that. I posted in the anxiety handheld thread too because there’s really days when you just need to feel understood.

I’m currently looking into other methods to help me stay calm. Yoga, meditation and exercise. Have tried exercise before and it did help. But it’s hard to stay motivated for long...

Thank you Chris and Reike. It really is a never ending cycle.