I have PMT so everything is bothering me much more than it should so just need to have a rant to get it all off my chest - got myself all worked up on the way to work and now I'm here I feel like bursting into tears!
DS (8 months) is ill - again! There hasn't been a day since he was born that he hasn't had some kind of ailment - excema, colds, coughs, eye infections, rashes, now think he has hayfever! Every time I feel as though we're in some kind of routine and starting to enjoy it he gets ill again and we're back to waking up four times a night again, not feeding, crying all the time, etc. I know its not his fault but today its just all got to me.
People keep telling me how 'he looks like he enjoys his food' because he is quite fat - but I feed him a really healthy balanced diet and he doesn't eat excessively - he just doesn't move much. No idea when or if he's ever going to move - he just sits there and if he can't reach something he just cries and gives up (know how he feels!)
Now DP has tonsilitis and a cold so he was also up half the night with the loudest coughing and sneezing in the world. I know thats not his fault either but just can't seem to muster up any sympathy because I'm just tired and fed up.
My mum has got DS beacuse nursery won't have him with eye infection. She has a bad back so it hurts her to pick him up - feel guilty for relying on her so much but can't keep taking time off work.
Have two projects at work to finish by tomorrow and can't get motivated - I'm the only one in the office today, the others are off on a jolly so nobody to talk to (although I would probably only moan at them anyway!)
Really feel as though I need a holiday - haven't been anywhere for about three years because DP won't take time off work - now feel as though it won't be a holiday if DS is there anyway but at least it would be a change. DP has agreed to dog sit for his parents later in the year which he thinks will be a holiday but in reality he'll just take his work with him and I'll be stuck in a house in the middle of absolutely bloody nowhere with DS where you can't even go out for a walk without having to fight your way through cow shit. What really pisses me off is they won't put their dog in a kennel so we have to put our cat in a cattery to go and look after their dog!
Grrrr. Arse.