Waiting for something bad to happen

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Does anyone else feel like they can't let themselves be happy and they're just waiting for the next thing to come and destroy everything ?
I keep thinking about things obsessively that I know logically aren't going to happen but the 'what ifs' are always there . Things are going well for my family now and i Just can't let myself believe it for fear of bad things happening. Is this common ?

Ah you've just described me!

I don't think it is normal, no. But yet to learn how to be any different..

How do you deal with it ? I'm on edge constantly

I kind of know what you mean. I don't think I'm necessarily waiting for something bad to happen but it seems I cant allow myself to be happy for very long and look for things to worry about.

I'm exactly the same. I had a run of bad things happen, feels like I'm always wondering when the next one will be. It's not a good way to feel is it

This absolutely sounds like anxiety to me too.

I had this after a few really difficult years of bad things happening, when it finally started to improve I couldn't accept life was going well and almost looked for problems.

You mention things are going well for your family, have you tried talking to them? Are they supportive? Sometimes just getting the thoughts out of your own head can help greatly.

Might be worth a look at mindfulness, meditation, keeping a diary, exercise, just keeping busy in general. There a lots of ideas about, I suggest you find what works best for you and schedule it in as part of your daily routine.

I'm the same. For me this manifests as health anxiety and I'm constantly on edge waiting to be diagnosed with some terrible terminal or chronic illness. I find new year very hard as people are looking forward and I feel like looking forward is scary because I never know when some unknown terrible thing is going to strike me or my family. It takes the enjoyment out of life. I try to live for now but it's hard not to focus on things that I enjoy being overshadowed by the threat of bad things happening. Have you ever been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder? I have a diagnosis of health anxiety and GAD. Have you spoken to your GP about how you feel?