Feel stupid

[time4me]

I feel stupid and its a horrible feeling .
Twice I have rung up enquiring about a job in another part of the country and twice I havent taken it further like I am a big coward.Today has been especially difficult as the kind person chatting to me on the end of the phone obviously felt I was the type of person they were looking for. My daughter of 16 doesnt want to go to the other end of the country .My DH was quite encouraging and said leave it till DD goes to Uni after Alevels.
Now I will have to ring the lady tomorrow and say I am not applying afterall,maybe if there is a vacancy I will apply next year.
I feel awful,like the expression Timewaster applies to me big time.
Just feeling very low and stupid.
I would love to live in London from my small industrial town up North,or somewhere down South.I read Feel the Fear last night cos I couldn`t sleep,that has made me feel much worse.

Just explain fully to the lady and she'll understand, it's a genuine reason. Don't be so hard on yourself.

And completely lacking in confidence as well by the sounds of it.
Its a HUGE decision, not as if its a Tesco order! I think that it is entirely reasonable that you can change your mind, and i think that they will see that as well.

Thank you,thank you.
Dissle your message made me shiver.
Actually people think I am confident.
You are so kind.

Well, if its a lady you need to speak to tomorrow, there's a strong chance that she'll understand! Explain, that after considering the enormity of applying for this job, you (and your family) feel that now is not the right time afterall. Tell her you are very grateful for her time and if at all possible, could your cv be kept for further consideration. Then, I would spend the next year, while your dd is studying her A's, to really look into the possibilty of living in London and do some really good homework on it. That'll keep you busy and positive. You may even find that, on reflection, this job isn't right for you now or in a years time.

Wishing you the strength you need for tomorrow.

Princess,you really are a princess.
I left a telephone message on the answer phone and tried not to sound too desperate.I do feel much better now and I will follow your excellent advice.
Thank you,you are kind but also give good advice,really appreciated.