It won't let me rest

[LEMtheoriginal]

Anxiety is going to kill me. Part of me wishes it would hurry the fuckup

Hi Lem, any tips on getting my anxiety level down. Did a six week Stress Pac things 18months ago and gradually anxiety dropped. Stopped Citralopan about six months ago and fine until life has thrown a load of shit at me the last month. Anxiety now high! Take Kalms and co-codamol and half a sleeping tablet (not mine) to sleep but as soon as I wake the knots in stomach are painful. Don't like to see people while I'm like this as I'm just not myself and feel like a sad bore.

Hi can I join anxiety. Anxiety through the roof, think this holiday nearly killed me. Single mum somfeeling really alone.

I understand the feeling alone! But today a friend invited me over for a coffee because I'd said I was a bit stressed and I made an excuse that I was going to my family. I wasnt, I've just been here all day in my own. Anxiety makes me so unsocial, I think everyone thinks I'm a sad bore, and I'm normally good fun, when I havent got this knotted stomach 24/7. So I avoid seeing people!
How are you nixnjj?

My anxiety has been stopping me seeing DC as I can't drive through the mountain roads. I was fine for over a year and then suddenly last year I had a massive panic attack and had to pull over and cry. I was shaking so much but I had to get back on the road. No way out and I had to keep going. I was driving at 10mph all the way. Massive tailback but I just kept driving through tears and pounding heart.
Why? I just don't understand.
Now I want to give up work as I'm scared of sliding on frosty pavements in the morning walk to work.
These are real fears of real life physical problems but they never used to bother me.
I'm a mental wreck.

Have you any wellingtons, or boots with similar soles. You won't slip in wellies, just put your shoes in a bag. Bigger what you look like! Get them on and get to work.
Driving in snow and walking on slippy pavement is not good but can be overcome! We can do this!

I've been looking on amazon for snow boots, non-slip gum rubber soles. All sorts of devices to try and give me confidence but I struggle with anxiety as soon as it starts even just raining. I keep checking weather forecasts and praying the temperature won't drop for the ground to freeze. I honestly just feel like telling work I can't come in next week or for the next 3 months.

I fell down stairs just before Xmas. I'm agoraphobia too but due to finances I had to go into town to get his Xmas presents. Made Christmas hard. Today wasn't too bad as I just felt deflated and numb. Need my son back to school so I can get into a routine. I. Trying to push thoughts away as it's just tying me in knots. Sorry read back and not making much sense, just want to sleep and turn my bloody brain off

Point of first bit is I had a panic attack and managed to fall down stairs.

Back to work - I feel sick :*(

Good luck today LEM. I actually find work better than being at home - kept busy so no time to dwell, other people to talk to about random stuff. And being at home looking at the amount of stuff I'll have to pack up and then the place we'll have to leave is just destroying.
Still not found any where (or have any idea when the new place will be ready to go to) so that is a major worry as well.

Have been thinking about going to the doctor again. But then the ADs made me put on weight last time and I can't afford to put on extra. Side effects weren't nice. Also coming off them was horrendous. But they did make me more able to 'cope'

I don't know what to do for the best.

smile can I ask which ADs were you taking? I’ve avoided meds for the last 15 odd years purely as I’m frightened of putting on weight but my anxiety is just so so horrendous that I feel I’ve no option but to try something as I’m struggling to function and I need to be strong for my 12 yr old ds who is struggling with anxiety (LEM I completely understand the guilt thing 😩)

I was on citalopram for about 18 months and then switched to sertraline for another 6. I improved on sertraline to the point I felt well enough to come off them (or I thought I was). Side effects of setraline were awful for me. Night sweats, vivid nightmares, flashbacks, tingling and numbness in face.

I put on 4 stone in the 2 years though of course that could just be coincidental.

Was on Venlafaxine for about ten years, tried to get off them a few times but effects were unbelievable. Managed it eventually over a year, by chipping the tiniest amount off to start with then ended up taking just a tiny chip for about 3 months. Lasted about 3 months and anxiety not good, got out on Citralopram then came off that in one go,( not too bad effects) about 3 months ago. Was ok but since before Christmas anxiety terrible and so trying to do anything I can think of to get rid of it.

Did a 6 weeks Stress Pac course through Healthy Minds in 2016 that helped so dug all the paperwork out and reminded myself how to fight it.
Feeling lot better today!
Anyone struggling, you can self refer for MH help online. It's pretty good too!

Someone hit my car tonight I'm twitching for extra meds I think I'm a fucking addict